Hey there everyone! Long time no blogging, but today I wanted to talk about a heavy topic that has became a peaceful one for me. Excuse any typos by the way! 😂 As all of you know I am a mother and have been almost for 3 years now in which I can't believe it! I became a mother at the ripe age of 24 and during this time it didn't seem like it was perfect timing. My father had became ill a couple years before hand and was almost at the end of the road of his illness once I had found out I was pregnant.
With that being said I had to leave my beloved apartment behind and move in with my parents in order to take care of my father with my mother and sister. We were all very stressed trying to figure out our schedules to make sure he wasn't lacking the attention he needed. Of course I did not want to add to the stress of telling my mom that I was pregnant, but I felt that she needed to know right away. I ended up breaking the news to her at the Chinese buffet out of all places. She wasn't too pleased, but started to become excited as time went by. Little did we know what the future held ahead of us.
The next nine months would be the most stressful months of my life. My father would end up passing away in my fifth month of pregnancy. I remember praying to God and asking him to prepare me for what was about to take place with my father cause I didn't know if I was strong enough. He gave me a vision of speaking at my fathers funeral that same day. I didn't want to believe it at first, but I had to accept what was taking place. After being what I felt was numb during the planning process of my dads funeral, I came to the realization that I wasn't numb.
God actually gave me the grace and mercy that I asked him for to carry me through this difficult. I ended speaking at my fathers funeral and I was hoping the message got across to the audience. In summary I was stating to keep in touch with your love ones before it's too late. Before my father passed he was the first one to say I was having a boy. A couple months later I ended having a son named Legend. He came at the perfect time for us, it was almost like God giving us gift in return for the hell we went through the months before.
Legend was the medicine that everyone needed when he came. He brought much happiness and joy so we would all be able to move on. Legend has a lot of my fathers character by continuing to make us laugh. I miss my Father tremendously, but during the time of his passing I learned a valuable lesson. There is life after death and if you are a reader of my blog I want you to know that everything happens for a reason. Just because my father is no longer here does not mean I have to stay in misery and not continue to live. I chose to live within his honor because I knew he wouldn't have wanted it any other way. I hope this helps someone in some way, have a blessed day!
John 3:16 - For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
